Beauty: Last night the two of us were having dinner. A great bottle of red wine and cheeseburgers on the grill. No children... no grand children. It was a beautiful balmy night and I was thoroughly enjoying myself when I made the following comment...., "you know at the yard sale today I am the kind of person who just likes to get the most money for what I am selling."
Beast: Right. Then we put everything away and left some stuff at the curb for the trash pick up people and a couple of college kids came by and offered us five bucks for that nasty old broken dresser and I wanted to give it to them and you insisted we take their money because you felt we were still a few dollars short of our goal.
Beauty: Right, you went on to say.... "you are never satisfied , nothing is ever good enough."
Wow. I wasn't expecting that! I thought to myself ...Why does he always have to be so critical.?We were just sitting here having a lovely time.
Well later that evening when I couldn't fall asleep I guess some of what we said was bothering me. But I began to listen...and I began to wonder, why does it take me so long? Why does it take so long for me to get it? I thought what you said was so true. Nothing is ever good enough. Even the blood of Jesus isn't good enough. At least not for me. I always feel like I'm under the gun and I need to add something to what He has already done for me. I'm never satisfied even when God is. It really helped me to see that. I should be happy that God is happy and it's because of that blood (and nothing else) so why shouldn't I be? I immediately felt so much peace and fell right to sleep.
But this morning I guess I was still kind of mad and then I realized it is only my pride that keeps me form seeing what you were trying to tell me. And you can see things in me that I can't. When I stop being proud I can hear what you are saying.
I love this scripture and have been wanting to understand it.
"For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness for everyone who believes.."Romans 10:4.
To me that means that Christ is the end of performance, of a list of do's and don't's for righteousness to all who believe. Righteousness is a gift and I am in right standing with God not based on what I do or not do but based only on what Jesus has done for me.
I want to be satisfied when He is satisfied. If it's good enough for Him then it's good enough for me.
Thank you for helping me to see.
Beast: Right. Then we put everything away and left some stuff at the curb for the trash pick up people and a couple of college kids came by and offered us five bucks for that nasty old broken dresser and I wanted to give it to them and you insisted we take their money because you felt we were still a few dollars short of our goal.
Beauty: Right, you went on to say.... "you are never satisfied , nothing is ever good enough."
Wow. I wasn't expecting that! I thought to myself ...Why does he always have to be so critical.?We were just sitting here having a lovely time.
Well later that evening when I couldn't fall asleep I guess some of what we said was bothering me. But I began to listen...and I began to wonder, why does it take me so long? Why does it take so long for me to get it? I thought what you said was so true. Nothing is ever good enough. Even the blood of Jesus isn't good enough. At least not for me. I always feel like I'm under the gun and I need to add something to what He has already done for me. I'm never satisfied even when God is. It really helped me to see that. I should be happy that God is happy and it's because of that blood (and nothing else) so why shouldn't I be? I immediately felt so much peace and fell right to sleep.
But this morning I guess I was still kind of mad and then I realized it is only my pride that keeps me form seeing what you were trying to tell me. And you can see things in me that I can't. When I stop being proud I can hear what you are saying.
I love this scripture and have been wanting to understand it.
"For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness for everyone who believes.."Romans 10:4.
To me that means that Christ is the end of performance, of a list of do's and don't's for righteousness to all who believe. Righteousness is a gift and I am in right standing with God not based on what I do or not do but based only on what Jesus has done for me.
I want to be satisfied when He is satisfied. If it's good enough for Him then it's good enough for me.
Thank you for helping me to see.
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